Conversation With The Horse is a story that takes place in both the past and the present, in which a woman lives with a being who is a lover, a traitor, and a horse at the same time—the story loops during this relationship. The Horse is a distant cohabitant, cruel in its indifference. Conversation With The Horse was produced to comprehend a promise broken in silence. 12 watercolor drawings of different renditions of the encounter between the protagonist and The Horse accompany the narrative.
I am living with a spy, she thought. A spy. This might not be entirely horrible if she is aware of the fact that she was actually living with a spy. She could choose to manipulate the spy. She could try to control to whom and about what the spy reveals information, resorting to deception. However, what if she loves the spy? Would her heart carry the load of being a fraud?
I am living with a cat, she thought. A cat. This is definitely a good thing. The cat does not judge. The cat would curl up and sleep beside her, but only if the cat wishes to do so. The cat does not scheme. The cat can be deceitful, without feeling shame.
I am living with a begonia, she thought. What kind of a thing is this? Begonia is beautiful but does it love me? For instance, would it feel sad for me if I suffered? Or would it be indifferent, look out the window and watch the streets? I cannot know. Begonia is beautiful, and it does not tell me how it feels. I presume it doesn’t love me.
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